Tuesday, December 23, 2003

I'm back at work. I feel better. At least 8:18am today is nothing like 8:18am yesterday. By this time yesterday it was probably my 4th or 5th time throwing up and let me tell ya, if it's your 4th or 5th time in the same day - you're prolly not having a good day :-( Oh man - I started drinking water just so that I could throw SOMETHING up when my body started going into convulsions. By the 9th and last time, at about noon, all I could think about was "how can people voluntarily do this? How can people with bulimia stand this?" Seriously, I don't understand it.....that hurt so bad - I mean my teeth, throat, cheeks, stomach, back, legs, and arms all hurt like hell I could hardly move. And regardless of whether or not I had the flu, I couldn't see myself conciously and voluntarily walking into the bathroom, sticking my fingers down my throat, and throwing up a stomach full of digesting food. I'd rather be 5'5" & 300lbs than feel like I had to do that everyday. It hurts!

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