Thursday, January 08, 2004

I'm afraid I have no understanding of any emotional turmoil around here. Something has happened, I know that for sure, but I don't really know or comprehend any of it. I'm so utterly confused - how should I feel right now? Upset? Steamed? Apathetic? Happy? I choose apathy for the moment. At this minute, I'm uncomfortable. But in the same breath, I feel better knowing my investment wasn't as deep in this situation as it was in the past.....that fact comforts me. It's as if I spent half as much time on this drawing than I did on the last - so when the piece is destroyed, I don't feel as if I lost quite as much. I will not go mad because of a loss; I will pick up my pencil and continue to draw with or without old pieces.

Scratch that, I choose happy.

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