Tuesday, November 26, 2002

Vos Reves

Dors-tu, mon enfant, pour tu es seulement ce soir.
n'as-tu pas besoin de remuer, pas besoin de te revieller, tu seras dans les bras de Dieu pour tout les anges voir.
Pour tu seras seulement sur la terre mais jamais dans vos reves.


-JML



Trans:
(sleep, my child, for you are alone tonight.
you need not stir, you need not awake, you will be in the arms of God for all the angels to see.
for you will be alone on earth (the land - literal translation) but never in your dreams.)

Sunday, November 24, 2002

To you, from me

Don't worry
I'll catch you,
Don't worry
I'll catch you,
Don't ever worry

Your arms in mine, anytime
Wouldn't trade anything,
You're still my everything
To my surprise,
Before my eyes,
You've arrived

Still breaking old habits, habits
You pulled the wool over me,
I can see everything, everything
Remembering,
Just remembering

Don't worry
I'll catch you,
Don't worry
I'll catch you,
Don't ever worry

No need for reminding,
You're still all that matters to me.....

Saturday, November 23, 2002

Today is good day -- I feel like singing !

Billy Ray was a preacher's son
And when his daddy would visit he'd come along
When they gathered around and started talkin'
That's when Billy would take me walkin'
Out through the back yard we'd go walkin'
Then he'd look into my eyes
Lord knows, to my surprise

The only one who could ever reach me
Was the son of a preacher man
The only boy who could ever teach me
Was the son of a preacher man
Yes he was, he was, ooh, yes he was

Bein' good isn't always easy
No matter how hard I try
When he started sweet-talkin' to me
He'd come'n tell me "Everything is all right"
He'd kiss and tell me "Everything is all right"
Can I get away again tonight?

The only one who could ever reach me
Was the son of a preacher man
The only boy who could ever teach me
Was the son of a preacher man
Yes he was, he was, ooh, yes he was

How well I remember
The look that was in his eyes
Stealin' kisses from me on the sly
Takin' time to make time
Tellin' me that he's all mine
Learnin' from each other's knowin'
Lookin' to see how much we've grown and

The only one who could ever reach me
Was the son of a preacher man
The only boy who could ever teach me
Was the son of a preacher man
Yes he was, he was, oh yes he was

Thursday, November 21, 2002

Live at Winterland 1968

Morning:

"I live in a daze...and I can't change and I can't wake up!...don't know what to say -- something strange that I can't make up" (Treble Charger)
"when you wake up in the mornin and it's a quarter to four and you think you hear a knock on your door ..." (Raffi)
"Tuesday shoot me in the head... I'm taking it back, I'm taking it back...I'll take it back.." (STP)

Afternoon:

"responsibility what's that...responsibility not quite yet..." (MxPx)
"I don't think I'm gonna make it...punch in i'm still sleeping..watch the clock but it's not moving....I feel like I'm living the worst day over and over again"(Simple Plan)
"What can i say...i'll bite my tongue again today.."(Ataris)
"and I swear it's the last time....and we'll walk in circles..." (Less Than Jake)
"So it's over now finally... I'm beneath...and I'm crawling out...on my knees" (Trust Company)
"going to see him when the sun goes down...I want candy...I want candy..." (Bangles)

Evening:

"I'm always workin slavin everyday...I need a chance just to get away...don't need nothin but a good time" (Poison)
"So I settled down at Kelly's pub...and told the boys the story and we had another round....we'll drink and drink and drink and drink and drink and fight...."(Dropkick Murphy's)
"and the night never ends...what are we gonna do?...." (Thursday)
"well...think about you all the time....one and one equals me and you" (Autopilot Off)
"i...I just died in your arms tonight...it musta been somethin you said..." (Cutting Crew)

Nighttime

"tryin to get away into the night....I think we're alone now...there doesn't seem to be anyone around now...the beating of our hearts is the only sound now...."(Tiffany)
"I hope that he turns out to be...to my heart he carries the key...someone who'll watch over me.."(Etta James)
"restin my bones..." (Ottis Redding)
"She dreams in digital ... it seems unreal...she's dreaming in digital.." (Orgy)

Wednesday, November 13, 2002

Some chicky's Bio

saying: when life hands you a lemon - just shut up and eat the damn lemon

Saturday, November 09, 2002

see all those people on the ground
wasting time
i try to hold it all inside
but just for tonight
the top of the world
sitting here wishing
the things I've become
that something is missing
maybe I...
but what do I know

and now it seems that i have found
nothing at all
I want to hear your voice out loud
slow it down
without it all
I'm choking on nothing
it's clear in my head
and I'm screaming for something
knowing nothing is better than knowing at all

On My Own
Get me a dream

I'm tired of being independent but i hate the way some things hold me back. I'm tired of being here, doing nothing, constantly stuck in the same place seeing no light at the end of the tunnel but I hate moving. I'm tired of opening doors for myself but I hate how I have to make an effort. I'm tired of feeling on top of things but I hate knowing there's things to do. I'm tired of being blown off, told no, looking at homework, taking quizzes.....i'm tired of being the only one I can really depend on. I'm with someone but I feel alone sometimes...when I'm sitting in my room staring at a screen... my life isn't in chaos...I'm on top of my life and it's so lonely. Sometimes I just wish I could take a break from being JML - for one day - just be someone else.....

Friday, November 08, 2002

On a brighter but less-juicey note

I had a dream last night that I was in the Marines with some guy that I knew but I don't remember who it was. We drove to two meetings on two different nights. The first one, we were late so the Marine Corps didn't let us in. In the second one, we took forever to get dressed cause everything had to be perfect, I mean down to the ankle cuffs. I was having trouble adjusting my belt and the pins on my green coat jacket wouldn't stay straight. Now that I think about it, the coats are blue with a white belt when the Marines are on show but I think at the end of BT they wear green. Anyway, so finally we were dressed perfectly and saluting ranking officers but for some reason they wouldn't let us stay long at the second place. As we left, disappointed, the evening turned into black night then I woke up to Pat knocking on my door telling me it's time to go.

This morning Pat knocked on my door and asked if I would be ready to go to court. I got dressed, rather formally, taking to the carefullest detail of my outfit. All black, it was easy, just a sweater and pants and jen's shoes if I could find them. Ran downstairs, found the shoes, and hopped in the bathroom to wash my face and brush my teeth. I grabbed my wallet and law notes and asked Pat if he was ready. We missed Gull road and had to backtrack a bit and Pat was worried we wouldn't get there on time but I didn't mind. We got there, walked through security, and headed to the front desk. We were directed to the two rooms downstairs. We tried the first but we couldn't get in, we were three minutes late.....the second was open but only lasted a half hour, but understandably, it was only a review hearing. On our way home, we stopped by Pat's then back to my house. Sara started a movie and I relaxed on the couch.

I swear to you blog I did not fabricate any part of this story; signed: Jack
Ok no. You have to hear this. So you remember my little debacle with the Post Office - in that they didn't send my credit card payments to my credit card companies thus costing me 1 late payment, $80 in stop payment fees, and not to mention INSOMNIA? Well, curious me, I'm interested in the Miles One card from Capital One - my credit company. So upon discovery of an online application, after reading through the details, I had a question about transfers and balances. I decided to call and as the automated voice message informed me that I had a balance of 58 cents I began to wonder. I talked to a customer service rep and asked her about my account....don't get me wrong, if someone paid my bill for me I'd be more than happy but unfortunately that wasn't the case. Apparently the bank (capital one) received my checks and posted them to my account. Wouldn't you be dumbfounded by that statement? I grinned and told the woman on the phone that I'd sent the f-ing letters out on the 14th of October - nearly a month ago. She said that now I have to monitor both my credit account and my bank account to make sure that they don't F up in the next few business days....if my bank allows those checks to be cashed and the money is withdrawled from my account I swear I will never do business with that bank again - although by law, because there was a stop payment on those checks it's my bank's responsibility to take care of their mistake......who knows blog...we will see in due time.

Monday, November 04, 2002

I have nothing this week. No real tests or homework, nothing. On another note, my voice is fading. Life is good. :-)
If only I could've said it a long time ago.

If I had just one tear running down your cheek
Maybe I could cope maybe I'd get some sleep
If I had just one moment at your expense
Maybe all my misery would be well spent

Yeah.... Could you cry a little
Lie just a little
Pretend that you're feeling a little more pain
I gave now I 'm wanting
Something in return
So cry just a little for me

If your love could be caged, honey I would hold the key
And conceal it underneath the pile of lies you handed me
And you'd hunt those lies
They'd be all you'd ever find
And that'd be all you'd have to know
For me to be fine

Give it up baby
I hear your goodbye
Nothins goin save me
I can see it it your eyes
Some kind of heartache
Darlin give it a try
I dont want pity
I just want what is mine

Sunday, November 03, 2002

I love the haunted house we built for Joey. It makes for tastey halloween memorabilia...i think I might put it in the basement at some point for our basement gnomes. My porch is really sticky. I mean reallly really REALLY sticky and I haven't cleaned it yet. S also asked me to get a new sponge thing for the mop too but I didn't do that. I feel bad, I should go do something. I don't want her to come home and think she has to do it, cause she's done a lot already. I'm gonna go clean for her. That's funny, I don't really care myself cause I've been out there twice in the last two days - but I'll do it so that she doesn't feel that she has to. I'm glad I live with other people. They give me motivation. :-)
Yea I remember Friday night. :-)

Saturday, November 02, 2002

Well the party was great. Our neighbors showed up(from both sides) and partied with us....I had so much alcohol it nearly put me in the hospital....I don't know why my arm hurts soo bad...I wish Paul didn't have to go to work...I'm so tired but I can't sleep because I can't breathe....I'm seriously about to go to Meijer abou that although I'm not in a decent condition to drive......I remember trying to talk to Nick on AIM but not being able to see the letters on the keyboard correctly then all of a sudden Nick and Ben were here...People are passed out everywhere..in fact one's right outside my door...Dana was all over everyone last night but that's ok I was too ( I love you Paul) .... I only wish I could breathe right now...