Tuesday, November 25, 2003

Today I'm just slightly stirred. Not quite shaken....just slightly stirred.

I love Quake.

I need surround-sound speakers, a sub, and big ass flatscreen.

Thursday, November 20, 2003

I looked and it was there.....I stared right into to those little 5 year old eyes and it was there... I'll be damned if I ever get to see it again but God it was like Heaven. She just stood there, bright eyed and smiling, as if I was some great grown up here to fill her world with joy......am I? I don't know.......but when you see it -- I mean when you look deep into there eyes; watch them celebrate over the smallest little gesture; when you see it and God I hope some day you will too,.... you'll think to yourself - God, it was there and I saw it - and you'll know it was all worth it.

Friday, November 14, 2003

Ok so I see an endless stack of reading on my desk....big deal. I'm 5 months away from graduating and I'm gonna to try, at least this week, to be happy about it. Yea, I know I have to take the LSAT practice tests three times before the 7th and I have to prepare my personal statement on top of all the homework - and I have to brace for a potential "no" from everywhere that I apply but screw it......I'm happy right now. I got my green sweater on, my brand new shoes, I'm going to get food, I made a family of 5 very happy last night, Dana's mom is here, central/western after party tomorrow night, I made some good progress in finishing some homework, the apartment is clean.......in the words of that great song from officespace "damn it feels good to be a gangsta".

Wednesday, November 12, 2003

Ok we'll just forget about those last two posts....I'll get back to them later. I feel good today.

Wednesday, November 05, 2003

I'm on the verge, no joke

These writings, though therapeutic, have now been transformed into the ticking time bomb that is my sanity. Blogger has one vital failure - my reader cannot see how many times I've attempted to write a semi-dramatic post about how my composure is slowly falling apart. With each stroke of key, I feel like I'm slipping into a pool of black water that only exists within my skull. I want to scream but I want to cry. I see microsoft word turning on and off, textbook pages turning rapidly, again and again, staplers, paper clips, professors and review sessions; it's like a goddamn strobe light and I can't turn it off. This apartment is my one haven right now but this desk is a freaking nightmare. It's not possible for me to completely lose control is it? Repackaged hegemonic cultural gender assignments, categorical and sentential logic, priming and defusing the democratic primaries, pearson moment correlation coefficient, prenatal development, 3.5+, 3.5+, 3.5+; I CAN'T TAKE THIS - somethings gonna crack soon......shit.

Tuesday, November 04, 2003

I'm leaving for Detroit tomorrow and I had really hoped to be sane but that doesn't look as if it's possible. My brain is killing me, seriously. I feel so burned out and I'm only about a quarter of the way through this ridiculously exhausting marathon. I snapped last night and only half expected it to happen. The week before last I had a quiz and a project due. Last week I had two exams. This week I have two exams and a paper. Next week I have a paper and another exam. The week after that I have a midterm and another paper proposal due. The week after that I have a major project due and then it's Thanksgiving. If you add about two to three hundred pages of reading a week then you've got my spare time down. After rereading my little list, I realize that it doesn't seem like it should be something I would break down over but when you have to keep a GPA up and fight to make time for other things in life - it proves more difficult than it sounds.

Monday, November 03, 2003

Stokes of Good Luck on November 3rd 2003:

-Goin to Vegas in 2 days.
-Obtained a letter writer for my Law School applications.
-Got word that I don't have a WMS class today - 3 hour class CANCELLED! wahoo.
-WMS midterm postponed for another week.
-Have extra time to devote to PSCI exam tomorrow.
-Found out I have time to attend a review session for PHIL exam.

Bad Fortune for Nov. 3rd:

-Exam for PSCI tomorrow on a 327 page book I finished only yesterday.
-Exam for PHIL I'm not exactly sure I'm confident about.
-I have 250 pages of reading to do possibly in Vegas before monday.

D'OH----oooo I have time to watch that tonight...wait....test....damn it.

Oh I almost forgot - I must say when of the funniest moments on television took place the other day - maybe last week I can't remember....but anyway, my beloved Butters, on Southpark, farted on and flicked off Cartman while telling him to "&*^% off". I love cheap, crude behavior.

Oh yea and watch Reno 911 if you get a chance - that is the funniest f-in show I've seen in a while......but that's just me.
I hate to do this but this is great....just great.

Forgetting to register for the LSAT......$hours of anxiousness and worry
Registering for the LSAT just under the wire.......$108
Late Charges saved.....$54
Printing an admissions ticket with the D.O.B reading "1/3/82" ......PRICELESS

Yea sometimes I really need to pay attention.

Saturday, November 01, 2003

I think this raging headache and the fact that it's 1 in the afternoon and I'm still have the "i fell asleep in my costume" look - explains the delight I experienced this past evening.

Crap.


I need a shower.