Thursday, July 29, 2004

Yesterday I forgot to put on my head I guess.  I drove right by my house not once, but twice!  Twice!!  I completely missed the house!  I couldn't believe it!  It seems like it should be an important thing for me to remember.  

Stupid.

Monday, July 26, 2004

So I visited Kalamazoo for the first time in 3 months this weekend.  It was great!  I finally got to sit down and talk with some people I've been meaning to really talk to in 3 months.  Although, I feel compelled to apologize for keeping Jen & Ryan from leaving on time Saturday evening....it wasn't Jen's fault Ryan, I besieged her with my "haven't seen you in a long time" attitude with a side of "I talk too much".  She was really trapped - I'm quite good.  :)  

Anyhoo, back to this weekend.  After I left Jen & Ryan's I headed over to Sarah's.  Have I mentioned how much I love Sarah??  Yea, she's so cool she should live in an freezer....ohhhhhh.  That was.....I'm not even gonna comment, it's not worth it.  Anyway, I got to see the pups and holy shnikes, they're only 6 months and GYNORMUS.  Oh but they are the sweetest and cutest dogs ever though.  We watched them play in the yard while we caught up on the porch.  Pat is gonna start working in GR for a software company (yea CJ major number 2 who is finding zero use out of his degree) and Sarah is going to probably go back to school for her degree in PT (she's got a BA in International Politics and French).  I'm so happy for them, they're great.  We tagged along with them later on in the evening when they went to the "Beer Tent" in Plainwell.  It was fun. 

Sunday afternoon, I got to see Axel and then JoeD and Heather.  JoeD and Heather made my apartment pretty!  It looked a hell of a lot better than when Dana and I lived there tell you what.  Ok, well it would've looked betterer if that ugly couch wasn't there - I hope my uncle plans to take a trailer with him to move that hideous piece of fabric and foam.  Paul and I talked with Joe and Heather for a while before and after packing up what was left of my things.  It was nice, I had a good time.  Oh and that's right, I totally jipped JoeD on rent last month ---- WHOOOPS I didn't even realize.   Brings up a good point though, I hate owing people money, so for future reference....if I owe you money - there's only two reasons why I haven't paid you yet.  #1, I don't know I owe you money or #2 I don't have the money.  #2 RARELY happens because I can always find a couple of bucks somewhere, even if I have to ask my mom. 

Oh jiminy crickets it's almost 8:20!  I have to finish a bid by tomorrow morning!  Gotta Go kids!  TTYL dudes.

Friday, July 23, 2004

Ok so I wouldn't have really dragged the guy from his car and beat him senseless in the middle of Coolidge but I certainly felt like it.  I probably would've just gotten out of the car and said "who the fuck slams on the brakes in the middle of an intersection as soon as the light turns from green to yellow?...Do you know the definition of 'unsafe' fucko?"  Yea, I'm all talk, hardly any action.  I don't know - I don't care if I get hurt, I just don't want to hurt anyone else or get sued for hurting anyone else. 
Friday

Blood is rushing through my body right now.  I almost got into an accident this morning and it made me really angry.  I was on my final stretch into work and I was following this old jimmy that admittedly, I should've passed but I didn't.  We were coming up on a green light and I figured this moron would probably keep driving because stopping would be highly unsafe and damaging to a vehicle.  Does Mr. Butthead keep going?  No.  This dude decides to slam on the brakes and stop in the middle of the intersection....WHILE THE LIGHT WAS STILL YELLOW.  I look up and I see this car in front of me so I slam on the brakes and swerve into the other lane just missing this dumbshit.  I was so mad I had to turn down the off street just so I wouldn't drag the f-er out of damn car.  You know I've heard of some people attempting to commit insurance fraud by getting into "accidents" - apparently they have  someone they know, follow behind them and pretend they're a witness and then claim it on insurance or even worse, use the witness to sue the other driver.  I'm glad I missed the guy but next time I WILL kick his fraudulent ass.  I don't work out for nothin...

Dick. 



Thursday, July 22, 2004

Oh it was so nice last night.  I came home, slept from 5:30 to 8:30, woke up, had some dinner, put my head back down on the pillow, and passed out again at about 12:30.  It was nice.....until this morning.....My dining room is covered in plastic because the ceiling had it's first coat of fresh paint on Tuesday.  I was originally going to finish it last night but I wanted, err needed, to take a break from the work.  However, this morning I woke up and the image of the dining room covered in a plastic drop cloths really started --- in the words of the woman down the street --  "workin ma last nerve".  I have no idea what that means anymore but I hear it all the time.  Anyway, so yea.  I found out that I have no patience for lengthy projects.  I also don't like it when it takes more than two days to ship my things.  I need instant gratification.   

Well, there's a method to this madness though.  I need to have everything bought and paid for so that I can financially recover and then blow everything on the wedding.  :)  My bridal party is going to be so spoiled.  I love it.

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

When I first walked through my house, I was thinking "wow, this is spacious and cute".  Now, I look at my house and I think "wow I don't have any room".  And although it is amusing to think that the furniture in my house looks much like trying to fit a cruise liner in a tool shed - it's honestly kinda sad.  In fact, it's so sad it makes me laugh uncontrollably.  I mean think about it - cruise liner, tool shed - sad and hilariously funny.  

Anyway, I'm takin a break from doing anything for the house for a day.  I'm tired of going to the store and I don't really feel like painting tonight.  Sooooo I'm taking a break to recoup.  My grandmother is supposed to come over this Saturday so I have to do some touch ups and second coats but I'll do that tomorrow.  Then, Saturday night I'm headin out to kzoo to pick up some things on Sunday from my apartment and to see everyone.  Ya know, I love that my life is busy but it's getting to the point where I can't even eat without checking the schedule.  Well, unless it's at work - and you, reader, can certainly tell that things are slow considering the fact that I've written more this week than usual.  (sigh)

Ok, well I have to go work on a job that I'll likely finish tomorrow - and it's due next week.

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

Last night, my mom helped me out of my creative slump while we were at Lowe's looking at wallpaper.  Honestly, I'm really not a big fan of wallpaper but the more we looked around the more ideas that popped into my head.  I thought I'd really like blue but I'm moving towards green....again.  My whole house is going to be green.  Oh well I guess.  Green is a good color. 
 
I'm really not happy that today is Tuesday.  I'd rather it be Friday.  I'm exhausted from workin my bum off last weekend and I just want a day to sleep in.  I'm really tired of moving constantly AND I'm REALLY tired of having to go to the store.  I just want five hours of peace and quiet in my house with no voices in my head saying "come on jack, there's only a few more things you have to do.....gotta get a garbage can, gotta get paint, gotta do this, gotta do that, blah blah blah".  I just want to hang out on my bed watchin TV and/or readin my book.  I want all of my furniture bought for me, all of the decorating done, and all of my cabinets full of good food.  Is that too much to ask?  :)

Monday, July 19, 2004

So I've been trying to get over to Kalamazoo for a while now and I haven't yet been able to free up a weekend.  This weekend I wanted to go but I needed to get my house ready so that I could move in.  Next weekend I have time to go on Saturday night - maybe - unless someone tells me I'm having furniture delivered on Saturday and Sunday.  The weekend after that I'm ..... whoa .... sweet ..... I totally forgot about the weekend of the 31st!  Ha!  That means I have  a free moment.  SWeet. 
 
So I spent my first night in my house last night and it was COOOL.  I love my house.  I love my big beautiful giantic sleigh bed.  It's so funny.  It doesn't even really fit in my room it's so gynormus.  Right now I'm pretty much living out of my room though.  I finished painting the kitchen and my bedroom and the next few projects are underway....well getting there at least.  I bought food yesterday and my cabinets still look empty.  I have one plate, one bowl, one pot, one fork, one knife, one spoon, and one tall plastic glass.  I ordered phone service and I think I'm going to wait to order cable.  I have rabbit ears that work pretty well so I think I'm ok.  Paul and I are getting a sofa and two chairs tomorrow and my table and chairs are supposed to arrive the 24th.  The weekend of the 31st, now that I think about it, is probably the weekend I'm going to help Paullie move home but I'll be in Kzoo.  So we'll have our guest bedroom finished - sort of.  What else..what else.....oh yea.  I kinda want to get my desk for my office but I might put that off a little while, maybe not, I don't know.  Two months worth of mortage are in escrow so I don't have to worry about mortage for a little while - hmm maybe I will buy my desk.  Maybe not. 
 
Anyhoo- I miss everyone in Kalamazoo.  I really do mean to keep in touch but it's so hard.  Now it's even worse because I'm knee deep in work at the house.  My weekends tend to fill up weeks in advance too.  With the wedding and getting the house ready for visitors, it's complicated. 

Friday, July 16, 2004

 
I bought a house yesterday.
 
I am a homeowner.
 
Oh my god - - -
 
THIS IS GREAT.

Thursday, July 15, 2004

This is What We Do

If there's a reader out there with an estimating job, that reader will know this feeling well. To start in order to run a company, the company needs to have work. To get work, estimators run around to different general contractors or owners and give them prices (or "bids") to do certain projects. When an estimator bids a project and the estimator finds out that someone else beat their price - estimators get pissed. But when estimators bid projects and find out that out of several other companies, their price is the lowest - estimators freak out. Right now, I'm really freaked out; utterly scared shitless. Did I forget something? What did I do? Can I make any money on this job? Oh shit. I had to have forgotten something. Oh god, what am I gonna do? You're blood starts to thin, you feel dizzy, and you almost want to pay the penalty and back out.

All of this confuses me. I feel the same reaction from both being beaten and being accepted but these feelings seem odd, no? I mean as an estimator, you really want a job and you should be happy when you get one. I just don't understand I guess. All I know is that I'm really f-in freaked out and I would rather be a happy camper.

Monday, July 12, 2004

What is it really anyway?

I realized recently, that I'm going to have to change my name. I don't know if I want to change my name. I like my name. Why am I the only one who has to change it? I'm gonna have to change all of my credit cards, all of my memberships, my checks, my business cards..... I'm gonna have to go to the sec of state for my drivers license too. Man, I HATE the Sec of State. There's long lines, they have too little hours, and most of them are unqualified; it can't get any worse. You know the last time I went there I had to sit in line for an hour, complete a written motorcycle test, sit in line again, hand them my license, and then wait 20 minutes for them to finish doing paperwork. AND THEN when they finally brought me all the paperwork, they asked my dad to sign something for me. We both squinted at this lady with that confused/angry face and asked why she needed my dad's signature. Turns out that they thought I was applying for a drivers license. She snickered and said I looked young. I wished I'd said "you must be getting old." Then she HANDED ME MY DRIVERS LICENSE BACK, gave me a certificate of endorsement, and I left frustrated.

I hate it when people think I'm really young. Don't get me wrong, I'll probably love it when I'm older but this lady thought I was 16. I was 21 at the time. Another lady at a gas station asked for my ID when I used a credit card once. She laughed at me and said she would've guessed 15 and again, I was 21. I'm 22 and I want to look like I'm 22. I don't want to go to meetings and have people look at me and wonder "why is there a child in my office?" Looking like you're 15 doesn't help the career much.

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

Dreams

I had a wonderful dream last night. I bought a small farm up north that was owned by a elderly woman that passed away some time before I closed on the place. The property was set off of a quiet country road that was hardley traveled even by locals. Two wide fields of wheat bordered the road and lined the long dirt driveway that divided them. In front of the house was a small patch of green grass that held the wheat from the white wood siding. I found myself standing at the base of the driveway, looking up at the house and then down the driveway to the road. Suddenly this woman appeared from behind me; she was telling me how to care for the fields. "What you need to do", she said, "is roll the wheat in a small bundle, tie them with this string, and set them out by the road so they can pick the bundles up." I nodded my head and started to work. I was almost finished with both fields when I heard voices echoing through the house. I decided to investigate so I walked through the front door and looked around. When I noticed the for sale sign in the front of the property, I remember wanting the sale so desperately that I signed the dotted line without even looking at the interior of this house. As I passed the front door, it hit me; this is the first time I've been in here. I walked down a hallway and found six people sitting and standing in the kitchen. "This is quite a house", one person said. "I heard the old lady died right here at this very table", another exclaimed. I turned around, seemingly uninterested in my findings, and headed to the door. Suddenly, three people rushed into the room and I could feel a thick cloud of tension following them. "What's this" the first one said. GASP! "You stole this didn't you??!!" the second one shouted. The third hung her head in shame, having no response. I remember wondering why they didn't seem to notice me. They didn't even look at me. I walked outside the front door and looked down at my watch. I caught sight of my hands, turning them both back and forth in disbelief. Oh my god, I'm the old woman.

Then I woke up.

Freaky huh?

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

I don't know about you blog, but I'm sick of people telling me "Oh Jacqueline, you need to do this" or "Oh Jacqueline, you need to do that". I haven't even moved into my new house yet and people are already telling me how to decorate it. "Oh you simply can't change the curtains or the paint upstairs, you just have to deal with it because they look expensive." Are you kidding? "Well what are you gonna do - change the blue and then have a boy and paint it blue again??" Who the hell talked to you about OUR baby plans. Let me check my watch OH YEA it says we're not having kids for a while. AND who says a boy's room HAS to be blue??? Seriously come on. Let me decorate my own house. This fight is stupid. It's my house. I'm not arguing with you over what I want to do at my house.

Thursday, July 01, 2004

No one has ever told me I need to "dumb" up my writing until yesterday.

I guess the business world isn't all prim and proper after all....who knew?


This weekend is gonna be great. Three days of rest...finally. I'll actually have time to make some calls that I should've made weeks ago.