Tuesday, November 30, 2004

The Wedding Part 1

I spent Thursday and Friday morning cleaning and running errands in an all out attempt to get a whole list of things done before the rehersal Friday night. Surprisingly enough, I accomplished pretty much everything on my list and still had a few minutes to get ready for the rehersal at 6pm.

At the church, the walk thrus started out smoothly but as time quickly passed by, things began to rush rush rush. Soon enough we were out in the parking lot and off to the dinner at the Rochester Hills Brewery. We got our drink, mingled for a few minutes, and then Paul and I finally got to say something to our guests for a change. You see, for us, this moment had been building in our heads for almost 8 months - so when we stood up to speak, we could hardly contain ourselves. The flower girls and ring bearer got Disney DVD's, the readers got something from Nordstrom's, the bridesmaids were treated with diamonds, the groomsmen were given time pieces, the ushers got engraved pocket watches, and for the GRAND FINALE..........the parents found out that they are going to Boston or Savanna for a long weekend this coming summer. It was insane! Everyone seemed overjoyed which was fantastic! We really wanted to show our utmost appreciation for those who were participating in the wedding and I think we accomplished our goal.....well I hope we did. :) Oh it was great. I'm still excited about it even now. It kinda sucks that were sorta broke right now but it was totally worth it.

After the Brewery, we headed over to Main Street so we could spend time with some out of town folks. That was great and although a couple of us couldn't stay long, we still had a really good time. That was the night of the infamous basketball/fan fight!

(stop transmission - enter "to be continued")

Monday, November 29, 2004

I was gone for 11 days and, in total, in grand frickin total, one days worth of work was completed. one day. i'm so amazed.......i am so amazed.

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

Well today is the last official day of me working for this and next week. I almost feel guilty leaving...I mean I know I've said that before but I really do. It's like sitting down to watch a show you really like and then getting a phone call that lasts most of the show. Or it's like you started an essay and other people have to finish it for you but you're the only one who's been to class since the project's been assigned. I don't know - in the past, I've noticed that I have a tendency to throw myself into jobs and I guess it's just hard to pull myself away from that when they're only just in the beginning stages.

I've been thinking about this since my father mentioned something yesterday afternoon and I absolutely must talk about it. On the way home from a meeting yesterday my dad asks me about law school and I explain to him that I'm not sure about going, it's still an option, I like what I'm doing now, blah, blah blah. Anyway, so he says "well, I think you should go into Contract Law because we'll need people like you in this business." I kinda rolled my eyes and thought about all the other people who've told me that I need to go into this and that and whatever. But then, out of nowhere, the conversation takes a turn - he says "you're mother and I have talked about it and you seem to be really into this business - you have a few jobs, you're doing well, and we just wanted to find out what you wanted to do."

I don't know why, but I felt strangely happy after that. Was that a compliment? ...because I think I took it as one.... Finally someone has noticed that I'm at work from 7am to 5pm Monday thru Friday and half a shift on Saturdays.

Now that I reread the comment, it's becoming sadly amusing. It's not even a clear compliment, if it was intended to be a compliment at all, and instantly my feelings change. I guess I'll take anything I can get at this point.

Monday, November 15, 2004

You know how I always write that sometimes I love my job and sometimes I hate it?

I f-ing hate it today. I really f-ing hate it. If I had another job I could apply to, I would probably be seriously considering it right now.
this is a complete and utter nightmare. this morning I found out that my supplier shipped 53 squares out to my job - I ordered 84. I don't really know how I should feel right now. Almost everything that shouldn't have gone wrong, has gone terribly, terribly wrong. I'm almost glad that I'm leaving for a couple of days but at the same time I really hate leaving when things are this messed up.

I feel fat today. For the last week, I've pretty much been eating pizza and I feel disgusting. I'm going to work out tomorrow and I'm going to either start making myself sandwiches for lunch or I'm going to choose more non-fatty foods for lunch when I go out everyday. I was on the right track about 2 months ago - i lost about 10 lbs. but I probably gained it back from eating absolute crap again.

I got a mud wrap on Saturday morning and it was so nice. Once you get over the fact that you're pretty much naked when they put the mud on you, it feels really relaxing. It was a really nice place but it's part of the reason why I feel so chunky.

The bachelorette party was f-in awesome. We went to dinner at a nice resturant, we opened presents back at the house, and we went bar hopping in a limo until 3am. It was kick ass. We ended up at Tycoon's, a gentlemens club, which we almost didn't make it into because we supposedly needed a "male escort". And then when half of us walked out, they were like, "oh it's ok whatever". Who woulda thought they'd kick us out of a strip club because we're women? They didn't kick us out at the gay bar!

Yea, Saturday night was crazy but it was also a blast.

Saturday, November 13, 2004

It's Saturday and I'm here again. This sucks.

You know what I hate most about work? I hate it when I get a call as I'm driving home, my phone rings, and the voice on the other end asks: "Hey did you have a base layer on the south area?" And then I think about it for the rest of the evening, in the middle of the night, when I wake up, while I'm brushing my teeth, in the shower, and finally, in the car on the way to work. As soon as I get to work, I check the drawing, argue with my dad for a minute or two and then we come to the same conclusion - it is correct the way I figured it. Then my thoughts about having to buy more material or that I fucked up, disappear. I hate that. I hate it so much.

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

I've got a smile on my face, and I've got four walls around me
I've got the sun in the sky, all the water surround me
Oh you know, ya I've been down and sometimes I'll lose
I've been battered, but I'll never bruise... it's not so bad

And I say way-hey-hey, it's just an ordinary day
and it's all your state of mind
At the end of the day,
you've just got to say... it's all right.

'Jackie' sings on the corner, what keeps her from dying
Let them say what they want, but she won't stop trying..Oh you know,
She might stumble, they push her 'round
She might fall, but she'll never lie down...it's not so bad

And I say way-hey-hey, it's just an ordinary day
and it's all your state of mind
At the end of the day,
you've just got to say... it's all right.

it's alright, it's alright...it's ALRIGHT.

Cuz in this beautiful life there's always some sorrow
And It's a double-edged knife, but there's always tomorrow..Oh you know,
It's up to you now if you sink or swim,
Just keep the faith and you're ship will come in, it's not so bad

And I say way-hey-hey, it's just an ordinary day
and it's all your state of mind
At the end of the day,
you've just got to say...
I say way-hey-hey, it's just an ordinary day
and it's all your state of mind
At the end of the day,
you've just got to say... it's all right, it's all right

I've got a smile on my face, and I've got four walls around me

(I love this band.) -Great Big Fish

Monday, November 08, 2004

There are days when I love my job and there are days I wish I'd moved out to Denver with all of the other relatives. This morning, I was hoping I'd wake up to Denver.

There are papers all over my desk and people on the phone from four different jobs whining about how they need this and they need that. This morning I had a meeting with my GC and he tells me he doesn't want to pay me any more than I owe to my suppliers. He tells me that he has a check for me for 3 dollars but he's going to void it because he'd rather pay me 2 dollars in one check and 1 dollar in another check. Another guy tells me that he doesn't want to fork over 5 dollars to help cover the rising cost of a roof so he pushes me to try and split the 5 with us. I tell him let's change your roof system and you won't have to pay the extra - he tells me no and then asks me if I can split it 50-50. The last guy, nice guy, tells me I need to meet with him for a run thru during the bid, with my super, again with a grounds person, again with an electrical person, again with a safety office, and again for a pre-con meeting. Nice guy, good guy, but I hate going over the same thing 8 different times...I just want to start and finish.

That's business though. Yeap, business as usual.

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

I'm scared, I'm really scared. With the way the economy is going and Bush being in the office for four more years, I'm reallly reallly scared. I mean, if we have another year like this, I could be out of a job. And what's worse, if I lost my job, the only other option I have is to go into the academy and I do not want to go there. I'd probably be interested in moving to Canada and becoming a 'mountie'.

Terrorism. This is a subject that I don't normally tackle on this website but I'll try briefly. Too many politicians think that the US needs to focus its time, energy, and money into a war and 'homeland security' because we were attacked in 2001. Yes, it was a horrific and a great tragedy but to devote almost four years of funds to a war we can't win is ridiculous. Terrorism is everywhere, we can't overcome it. Terrorism is the person who kidnaps a child for money, terrorism is a government who rewards the wealthy and punishes the poor, terrorism is the company who offers jobs to citizens of other countries (outsourcing) and pays them a dime an hour for 80 hours a week, terrorism is invading a country on a quest to further our own agenda... We've gotten so numb to the word "terrorism" that it's been almost redefined into a word meaning "iraqi". Our ears have been filled with nonsense and no one seems to notice anymore! Terrorism=2001 and 2001=afganistan/bin laden and bin laden=bad and bad=iraq and iraq=saddam and saddam=must find must kill must blame for 2001 and other world terror. What the hell kind of logic is that people?? That's right, President "I've got a personal vendetta against Saddam for threatening my father" George dubya. Listen, terrorism is here, it was here nearly 300 years ago when white people terrorized native americans, it was here 100 years ago when white people terrorized black people, and its here today when the US terrorizes Iraqis.

You know what really makes me laugh though? Some people actually think instituting a democracy in Iraq is a good idea. In fact, some actually dare to call it "freeing Iraq". We are so damn arrogant that we think that we can stop people from fighting and live peacefully. There are Shites, Sunnis, Christians, and Mystics in Iraq and...we'll just say they don't exactly agree on everything. We are so fucking arrogant that we can get them to live peacefully. Next thing you know, we'll start thinking we can get Israelis and Pakistanis to stop a thousand years of fighting.... ;) For fucks sake, we can't even get Republicans and Democrats to agree.

We're such assholes, honestly. Sometimes I'm embarassed to call myself a citizen of the United States. I'm trying to avoid using the word 'american' by the way, I think that adaquately defines our arrogance in itself (there is more than one country on the north american continent you know). But what can I do now? I voted, I spoke up, apparently I'm one of very few people willing to critize myself and my country. I guess I'll just have to live with that right?

On a side note, to all those who voted yesterday, no matter who you voted for, thank you. From the bottom of my heart, whatever the outcome, at least you cared enough to speak up. thanks.

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

You know what people - don't vote if you don't want to. I say, leave it up to me to decide who you marry, what to do with your body, how much you're going to pay in taxes every year, how we're going to spend your money, what your not going to say or hear, how we should handle your kids, when we should push you're children into the military, what drugs you're elderly parents can afford, if you get healthcare or not, or even if you can keep you're job this year. So really, don't vote if you don't want to; I really don't mind. In fact, I don't mind so much, that I might just be willing to join rank and hold an office myself. Hell, that way I can be sure I can decide what happens to you knowing I'm not going to have to hear one damn peep outta ya. Sweet. That's it, Senator Jackie LaDuke here I come.

Monday, November 01, 2004

I haven't gotten my medicine cabinet/vanity yet. I'm so pissed.