Tuesday, May 31, 2005

I'm in one of those awful moods today. I've been sick with a cold all weekend and I don't really want to hear how great everyone elses weekend was. I don't want to deal with the testosterone bullshit around this office too. EH. It's like I'm in competition with three of the four men in this office - "What did you do this weekend? oh not much huh? well I built a 10,000 sqft house in two hours cause I just felt like it. With one hand. Backwards. With a 1000 lbs. strapped to my waist." What the hell? I don't care. I mean, should I say "wow, you're awesome" and roll my eyes or should I pop him in the jaw? Which do you think would convey the message that I don't care more clearly?

Ugh. Men.

Friday, May 27, 2005

JoeD and Heather are coming over tonight! Yea!

Dude I cannot believe your still friends with me after all these years. I've compiled a list of crap we've done to each other that would've stopped normal people from being friends.....

1. You spent almost every waking moment with K and I, in our dorm room, freshman year.
2. You totally copied my hammock idea.
3. JGP convinced you he was irish - and that he celebrates the same holidays as Americans.
4. I think I was the one who told you Jon was hawaiian.
5. Jeff and I had to carry you all the way to your dorm room after getting drunk and passing out in the hallway.
6. The little red fire truck.
7. Foster.
8. Dick Baker's class. Sorry dude, that was brutal.
9. The glorious invention of the Double Bunk King Size Dorm Sleeping Quarters - which Jen and I loved but made me think I was gonna die cause one of the beds on the bottom was the 'modified' one.
10. The little green shack attack.
11. You randomly showing up at the house, you randomly showing up at both dorms, you randomly showing up at the apartment.
12. Non-stop fighting.
13. Whooops engine mounts fell out of your car and the steering wheel is smoking
14. Cigar shared between Jen, you, and I - 50 feet from Zimmerman.

I can't wait til you guys get married. Invited or not, I'm bringin the shenanigans. Crap....Heather, you and I have to do something embarrassing - we need to bring you up to speed!

Thursday, May 26, 2005

I am a sucker for dates man. I went out on a date the other night with a friend - it wasn't a date for me, it was for her but she wanted me to go with her cause she didn't really know the guy. So I went and my immediate impression of this guy was: cute, looks young but over 21, shy, and a freaking giant at six and a half feet tall. Anyway, so after listening to my bud talk to him for a while, I realized that maybe I shouldn't be sitting next to them eavesdropping cause I was starting to look like a butchy bodyguard drinkin beer and watchin the game. So I figured my friend would be fine and maybe this guy would feel more comfortable if I went to sit at the bar - so I made my way over. A few minutes later, they show up and take the seats next to me. I love that. Cause then I can be like "ok, I made the effort not to eavesdrop but now I'm going to have to listen, record, and store this conversation in a black vault to be referenced back to only if you're a weenie." It's great. Ha.

He seems like a nice guy though. you know that guy from Slackers who always wears a back pack, who blackmailed the cheater guys, and who had a 'hair doll'? Yea, he's nothing like that. Or the cheater guys. He's nothing like anyone in that movie now that I think about it. Anyway, :) so I was all stupid excited cause I went out on a date but not really cause I wasn't really part of the date. I used to love first and second dates back in the day - so new, so exciting, so bold, so young. I'm such a sucker man.

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

I didn't get to sleep until 1am last night. I am sooo paying for it this morning.

Monday, May 23, 2005

Paul and I had a super work weekend. On Saturday, we ripped out all of the evergreen shrubs in the front garden, dug up and moved the three round shrubs, moved a tree back 3 feet, and replanted four boxwood shrubs, two flowering shrubs, and about twenty five perennials......and that was just in the front. In the back, we replanted the three round shrubs that we dug up in the front and I put in about twenty some more perennials in the back gardens. It was cool. This guy stopped by as we were ripping out the old plants in the front and asked if we knew of any garage sales going on. Then he's like "whoa, some people might get upset wit chu for moving all that stuff. But that's ok, I ain't mad at cha, you do what makes you happy. You have a good day nah." It was cute.

Everybody was outside this weekend. It was cool. My neighborhood is like those ones out of those old TV shows - like Leave it to Beaver or something - but less creepy and wholesome. It's more like: Little Johnny likes to hang out in his car, in the next door neighbor's driveway, talking to girls. Bobby Sue and all of her mid-life crisis friends like to hang out in the hot tub on the edge of the driveway and talk about men. Mary Jane and her mom work on the front garden across the street - every once in a while they'll stop and evaluate, then rest on the first step of the porch. Work Addicts, Jim and Jane, live a few houses down and have recently finished a total landscape facelift to their house in one short weekend. Neighbors, Nate Dave and Chelsea, mowed the lawn while we watched and tried to come up with a plan to find out if Nate Dave's name was Nate, Dave, or Steve...or maybe Kyle...we don't know. A few lawns away, we can hear John Deer mowing his lawn for the third time this week and a few lawns from there, kids are playing. No one waves and no one talks, we just smile at each other like dorks. We all work on our lawns and gardens and occasionally stare at each other .... like dorks. :) It's fun.

We started breaking up the stairs this weekend too. We didn't get much done because we were so tired but we'll have it done this week I think. I'll have pictures. Ugh, the wood was all rotted out and smelled baaaad. It was nasty. Not cool.

Friday, May 20, 2005

Watch out, you might get what you're after
Cool babies, strange but not a stranger
I'm an ordinary guy
Burning down the house

Hold tight, wait till the party's over
Hold tight, We're in for nasty weather
There has got to be a way
Burning down the house

Here's your ticket pack your bag: time for jumpin' overboard
The transportation is here
Close enough but not too far, Maybe you know where you are
Fightin' fire with fire

All wet, hey you might need a raincoat
Shakedown, dreams walking in broad daylight
Three hun-dred six-ty five de-grees
Burning down the house

It was once upon a place sometimes I listen to myself
Gonna come in first place
People on their way to work baby what did you except
Gonna burst into flame

My house, S'out of the ordinary
That's might, Don't want to hurt nobody
Some things sure can sweep me off my feet
Burning down the house

No visible means of support and you have not seen nuthin' yet
Everything's stuck together
I don't know what you expect staring into the TV set
Fighting fire with fire

-Talking Heads

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

I locked my keys in my car yesterday. In the ignition. With my phone inside. And my wallet. Luckily I was able to use Bally's phone to call my mom and ask her to bring my spare but still, it wasn't cool. I wasted like 20 minutes out in the parking lot waiting for my mom when I could've been inside but noooooo, I had to leave my keys in the car. Then later, on my way home, I got stuck in traffic and didn't get home for an hour and twenty minutes. During normal traffic the usual time it takes for me to get home is maybe 45 minutes. I hit every red light except for two though. Oh it was horrible.
last night, I said something to someone and I didn't really think about what I was saying before I said it. I don't know why I said it, I don't know why this person would want to hear it, and I don't really know why it was brought up in the first place......But nevertheless, I said it. I was stupid. This person probably doesn't even remember or maybe he/she does but it was a little comment and I hope this person knows that I'm sorry and I was stupid.

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

ahhh (sigh)....(yawn)....(stretch).......I need coffee.

Monday, May 16, 2005

Well it happened. My brother and Kristie are officially engaged to be married. Words cannot express how excited I am that she is going to be my sister-in-law. It's absolutely fantastic that everyone in my family loves her too - I would hate to have an in-law that I feel like I have to avoid. I know a few families that aren't too crazy about the future spouses - I am so glad I'm not one of them. That would suck!

I just found out this morning that an old best friend is engaged as well. I'm happy for him - I truly am. That's great. That's really great.

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

I'm changing. I'm gonna pretend that I'm not related to anyone at work and stop discussing my personal or work life with people. Maybe then I would stop being so goddamn negative about myself. People feel too comfortable to censure my personal and work life, taking for granted that they can do it without any angry recourse. They really shouldn't have the opportunity. Ugh, if I learned anything at all in this last year, it's that my family can always see the negative side in everything. My sister was right, we are all too cynical.

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

I'm so depressed.
I don't know how many more weeks I can take this.

Monday, May 09, 2005

I wish I didn't have to go to work today. I had such a nice weekend it's a shame it's over. I had such a wonderful time enjoying the gorgeous weather and getting some things done around the house that I hoped the power went out at the office so that I could come home and continue working on my house. I'm sad. :)

Saturday I removed all of the green leafy plants from the little garden in the middle of the lawn. Although it took me a full hour to finish, I felt so relieved because those stupid hairy, unkept looking plants were FINALLY out of my garden. I hated those stupid things. Anyway, so after clearing out that whole little section, I went to HD and picked up a flat and a Dogwood. It took me about fourty five minutes to pick out the Dogwood cause I couldn't decide whether I wanted a 6' pink tree or a 25' white flower tree. I picked the 25' only because it was only going to grow 25' if A) I planted it right or B) in 20 years. Then I picked up a flat of white flowers - ok I know it's about 2-3 weeks early but I couldn't resist. So when I got home, I planted my tree and a few bulbs and a few white flowers. After that, the whole day brightened up. It was like all the stress that I had building from a really tough week disappeared in the glory that was my bare little Dogwood tree. It was crazy.

Sunday, Paul and I went food shopping for the first time in weeks. After we put it all away, he went to work on the lawn and I cooked up a couple of dishes to take over to his parent's place for Mother's Day. I could not stop laughing at my mess of a cake and Paul wasn't helping, trying his best to call it a wonderful work of art that looked delicious in every way. I almost fell over. Oh I should post a picture of it. Paul's like "yea, just put more icing on it! You know, icing IS a lot like bondo...in a way....sorta.." So I've got this double layered disaster, covered in yellow and white icing, sitting in the 'ole ice box to keep it from falling over. I was so embarrassed! Why do my cakes always turn out crappy???!!

Overall the weekend was good. I wish I had today off too but alas, I cannot. I need money. I'm seriously considering having a trash dude come over and remove all of the building scraps from my basement so I can get back to workin on it. Ah paying for someone else to do it, that's such a wonderful feeling. :)

Friday, May 06, 2005

ok, so I realize that that last post was pretty bad. I rarely ever get that upset at a customer but this guy was different. He was the type that pretends he knows something about your business. He was the guy that degrades you because you're a roofer and roofers are stupid. He was the guy that thinks you should kiss his ass for his money because without it, you'd be starving. He was also the type of guy who would refuse to pay you after you finished the job. That's the type of guy this dude was and after I walked into his office I realized it very quickly.

I was just so angry that he could berate me like that and expect that I would be willing to do business with him. I couldn't believe he was beating me up over something so small that I almost lost it. He doesn't know anything about my business and yet he's going to tell me how I should run it? I kind of shut down after that. It was like I was watching myself take a beating and because this guy doesn't know about anything; about the companies, the roofing practices, the overall price vs. quality argument, etc etc - I could win no argument. I thought, well crap "You can't argue physics to a 5 year old!" - translation: I was screwed, I just had to take it.
I've been so stressed out and so tired for the last two nights - I've come home and slept from 5-8 after work, then back to sleep at 10 for the night. I can't believe it. I was really hoping to work out this week and I didn't - I slept instead. I sleep entirely too much.

have you ever felt like you've watched yourself do something? like you're detached from your body for a second? I feel like that at work sometimes. I got 'beat up' by this customer on Tuesday about this repair quote that I gave him. He proceeded to drill me for about an hour on how my repair quote was double the price of another company and that my replacement quote was three times the price of another company too. I did my damnest to tell him that my repair quote included repeat visits, warranty, damn good products, and great service - and this other company didn't include it. And then, he told me that my price for replacement was incredibly high but I fought back and told him that it was a BUDGET number of course I was going to be high - and that the system that I quoted was the BEST system in the industry and he was comparing my price to the cheapest system in the industry. I was like "dude, you're comparing a Volvo to a Daewoo, what the hell did you think you were gonna pay?" Then he's all "well I only need a system that works" and I was all like "I apologize sir, I got the impression you wanted something with low maintenance and would be worth the investment." He was all "ugh! well, I'm an asshole" ---- ok, so that's not really how it went but kinda. I swear he was just out to give me a hard time and try to get me to drop my price. I looked at him like "dude, you get what you pay for"

then for the whole hour I went through this, he kept trying to get me to talk about the other companies I was up against. Now I know something awful about each one of the other contractors but I'm totally stonewalling. I wouldn't want some other company to dog me in front of a customer so I say nothing. He realizes he ain't getting nothin so he starts telling me that I'm the expert and I'm supposed to be teaching him - but he's still arguing with me about my work.

I was going to lose one way or another as soon as I walked into the place. I'm competing against cheap companies who don't follow the National Roofing Contractors Association's guidelines for good roofing practices, I'm pitching the best system on the market, and I'm my guys are excellent roofers. This guy tells me I'm the expert but then tells me I'm an idiot for thinking that's what he's going to pay. Yes, he's right though, I was an idiot for arguing over three hundred dollars profit. if you're out there dude "out of all the other companies you got quotes from, I was the best - and you just ain't worth my time"

Monday, May 02, 2005

We installed close to all the wood flooring in the laundry, storage, and bathroom this weekend. I tried to do most of it but Paul is just so much better at it than I am. He's paying for it this morning though - he's so stiff, he's walking around like an 80 year old man. I tried to tell him that all he needed to do was cut the pieces and I'll put them all in but he insisted upon helping. Poor guy. It didn't take us long to finish but it was a pain moving the laundry machines back and forth and reattaching everything. Tonight we plan to finish the 5 square feet that's left in the bathroom. Then we have to reattach the toilet and put in our shelves - PAIN. Oh well.