Saturday, July 30, 2005

I am so lazy today. I played 18 holes yesterday at a golf outing sponsored by one of our suppliers and oh man, was it exhausting. I know what you're thinking, "golf? exhausting? no way", but really, it was. We started at about 10am and I left to go home a little after five. Of course, that did include a dinner but still, it was a long day. I got home at six and immediately went to bed. I was freakin tired.

I think Lindz and I are going to play 9 today too. It'll be a lazy game with no score but it'll be fun I think. I just hope I can get myself up and moving around so that I'll be ready to go this afternoon.

I'm trying to play as much as I can this year. I really want to be good. It's gonna be great when Paul starts playing again and we can really kick some ass out there. My parents, my in-laws, my siblings - hell, they could all play with us! It'll be fun!

Thursday, July 28, 2005

Day 14 - Total Weight loss for suggested two week detox period : 7 lbs. I should be on Phase Two tomorrow but I think I might stick with Phase One for another week. I just want to get in the right place before I hit the plateau during the first week of Phase Two.

Paul and I bought these ice cream sandwiches and bars which claim to be atkins or south beach approved and they are SO good. I think they're called Skinny Cow - mmmmm they are so good. I'll probably find out later that they weren't really good for the diet but I don't care, they're that yummy.

I feel pressure from people to decide what I want to do in terms of continuing my education. Right now I have two main choices: 1) go to Law School, taking the 35% tuition discount offer, spend a shitload in loans, stay in school for another couple years part-time in a graduate program I'm only half interested in, OR 2) go to U of D's School of Architecture, taking no discount because I'm post degree and part-time, spend a shitload of loans, stay in school for just as long, and graduate with an undergrad in a field I'm interested in pursuing. I have ideal backgrounds for both careers having graduated from Western with a Criminal Justice degree with concentrations in Criminal Law and Procedure and experience from working in the construction industry for both degree programs respectively. But I just can't decide what's the better choice. I've also thought about getting an associates in business administration at the local community college or even an associates in construction management but those I could take on the side I guess. I'm a dork.

I don't know what to do. I mean the degree programs for both those schools are so different. This is crazy. I know what I should do, I should apply to U of M's School of Architecture and Ave Maria School of Law and then see how difficult this decision is then. My parents would all but cry if that happened. My dad, MSU alumnus, would be like "fine go to U of M, see if I care" and my mom, Marian alumna, would be like "oh! go to Ave Maria! Yea for Catholic Law!" I should totally do that. Sweet.

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

oh yea! I almost forgot....I'll have updated pictures of my basement hopefully by Monday.

Day 13 - Weight loss to date : just under 7lbs. Average for the first two weeks is between 8-13 lbs. so I might be a little under average but I'll take it. It occured to me this morning that although I would love to be the exact same weight I was in high school, I'd still be happy if I was close by like 10-20 pounds. I just want to feel smaller. I want to go to the store, try on a normal pair of pants, and go "wow, I look good in these." I want to be in more photos and not feel obligated to hide my stomach or my arms or my legs. I want to look hot when I'm standing up for Kristie in my brother's wedding......well, obviously not as hot as Kristie but like Bridesmaid hot - like "whoa, you look great in that dress!" hot. I want to at least look great for the reunion this year because I know I can't compete when it comes to academic accomplishments. I mean, one girl in my class interned at the White House one can I compete with that? :)

I just want to look good, for me. That's all.

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Day 12 : It's not really all that exciting today. I had nothing but salads all day yesterday. I couldn't help it - Paul didn't want to grill at 9:30pm - I mean come on, who doesn't want to grill at 9:30? ;)

I'm seriously awaiting the day I can go back to fruit. I REALLY want like an apple or a banana or something....whatever I can eat, I just want a ripe piece of delicious mmmm fruit. Maybe I'll make a point to go grocery shopping Friday night after work. I'll call it my little grocery celebration. :)

We're supposed to have scattered thunderstorms here today and then it's supposed to get down to 75ish with zero humidity tomorrow. Although, the weather channel has been only half right for the last couple of days so it could be anyone's guess at this point. I wish it would just rain. I wish that within the next couple of hours, we have torrential rain conditions - so it seems like the clouds are being squeezed dry like a sponge. Then I wouldn't care if it was sunny, cloudy, sprinkley, or whatever - just as long as I never have to experience the 80 degree with 90% humidity mornings like this one again. OH it was awful. I felt like I was being steamed at 6am. I thought about calling in sick just so I wouldn't have to take a step outside of my air conditioned bedroom. It was so lame. LAME.

Monday, July 25, 2005

My mom called me Sunday morning and told me some bad news about my little brother. He's gotten himself into trouble once again I guess. Have you ever known anyone like that? Always making mistakes, always in trouble, always looking for a "break"?
Day 11 - Weight loss count : 6 lbs. I was a little bad this weekend. I did really well until my sister's party. I snuck a 2" x 2" piece of cake with frosting on it and OOOOOo that was a mistake. The whole piece was seriously one bite but after I had it, I craved another piece for like five hours afterwards. Damn sugar.

Friday, July 22, 2005

Day 8 - there are going to be some definite tests this weekend to see whether or not I can stay on this diet. There's a bridal shower and a graduation party, both are going to have good food I know it. It's gonna suck! I betcha they're gonna have something awesome with fruit in it and I'm gonna be like "awe damn it!" It sucks being committed.

I'm getting this urge to go out and do something on my own - like start my own business or get another degree or move or something along those lines. Last year, in my last semester, I got the same type of feeling when I made the decision to go overboard writing my final project in Advanced Crim. I wrote 20 some pages worth of compelling arguments related to female juvenile delinquency and the hypocrisy of the american government in their efforts to alleviate the problem. That wasn't the title but it's close. I covered all aspects of female juvenile delinquency while following the normal chain of events - social/political/economical theory, arrest, court, corrections, treatment, recovery, and new experimental therapy. I had like 15 or more sources that included my own research done in the Circuit Court in downtown Kalamazoo. It was cool.

So I need another project. Something small maybe. I don't know. You ever feel like that sometimes?

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Day 8 - I wanted to wait to weigh myself until Monday but I couldn't help it. I've lost a total of 5 lbs since my start date, last Thursday. That's really weird. I mean, I feel better but I don't necessarily feel lighter or like I'm losing weight every day. Then again, how can you feel yourself losing weight? Anyhow, it's definitely encouraging. You really feel like you're making progress and all that self-discipline is working. Now I only wish I tried it sooner.

I think I'm going to go to the range tonight with Lindz. Last Sunday I went out to the course and played the front 9 - needless to say, I shot like a 40. It was horrible. I mean, I can hit the ball, it just goes off into the trees and then I spend most of my shots trying desperately to get the ball back on the green while moving forward. It would be so much easier if I could hit it straight. So yea, I'm totally going to the range tonight with Lindz. I have to get better for this golf outing next week. I don't want to totally suck in front of my coworkers :-)

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Day 7 - I really wanted a burger last night but I didn't eat one. I actually just wanted the meat and ketchup but I'm not allowed to have the ketchup so I had a pork chop and salad instead. It was good. Paul also bought me Cottage Cheese - which is better than I remember. I haven't had it in years and finally TAH DAH - I'm eating it once again.

I'm craving some good home cooked southern food right now. Cajun crawfish, gumbo, jambalaya, catfish, even grits - ewe grits --- ok nevermind with the grits. I think the only reason that sounds good was because of this show I was watching last night. I caught a couple minutes of the interview with the guy that used to be on the show Dukes of Hazzard. He was saying that the movie shouldn't be viewed because it's all "hoochie coochie". The interview guy was like "wasn't it kinda pushin the envelope back in the day? why is it different from now? they're being as risqué as they were back then" He's like "No it's just not the there." It was funny. Then I thought about food. :-)

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Day 6 - I'm not sure if you could call it day 5 or day 6 cause I started the diet last Thursday. I guess technically it could be day 5 but whatever. I feel better again today. I woke up this morning ready to go for the second day in a row; without coffee and everything! My cravings for other foods are finally starting to reallllly subside. I mean, I still think about my Wheat Thins but with every day it gets a little better.

I'm into trying new foods now too which is cool. Normally, we'd have spagettii, skillet sensations, or - ick - take out, but since the diet came into play, we have to search to find new foods to eat. I can't explain how cool that feels to actually look in a cookbook for our next meal. Paul is becoming obsessed with the grill too. It seems like we grill everything....ooh and it's gooood too. MMMMM grill.

So after all that, do you want to know how much I lost since last Thursday? 3 lbs. Doesn't seem like a lot at all but imagine if you lost 3 lbs. in 5 days. That's a little over a half a pound a day. You could lose 36 lbs. in two months. I don't know about you but I'd be pretty darn happy if that happened to me. But enough with the speculation; I'm happy I lost 3 - we'll see how the rest comes off. At some point I have to hit a plateau and when I do, it's gonna be that much harder to get to that goal.

The Howard Stern thing I posted yesterday was a joke - they heard DLR was supposed to be their replacement so they thought it would be an interesting show if they had Dave run the show and Howard would call in.

Thank you for not having DLR on the show today. Thank you.

Monday, July 18, 2005

Oh and I also wanted to say that I started the South Beach Diet last Thursday. I figured I'd tell people just so I could document what's happening with it.....just in case anyone was curious.

Day 5 - I've noticed a change in my dependency towards water. Ever since I forced myself to drink water instead of juice, pop, and any other tastey drink (including beer), my body's been craving water. Who craves water?! That's never happened to me but then again, I've never conciously tried to lose weight before. I miss that part of my life; where I was so active in sports that I didn't have time to gain weight and my legs, arms, and tummy looked fantastic. Over the past few years, I haven't even really noticed the weight come on but now that I'm making the effort to lose it, ugh, I have such a ways to go!

Anyway, back to the diet. My cravings for starch have gone down slightly. I still want fruit more than anything - in fact, that's my main motivation for sticking with this two week hell. By the 28th, I can finally have fruit again! Yes! The first week is tough though. Especially if you like sandwiches for lunch and Wheat Thins for snacks like me. However, every time I get a craving I think of two things:

1. Would I rather have this (Insert Cheat Food Here) than lose a few pounds?
2. Nothing about changing your body will come easy.

Those two things have been my saving grace, let me tell ya. I have not cheated once because of them. It's really really really hard not to cheat so guilty thoughts like this totally help.

I'll post my weight loss soon, prolly tomorrow. I wanted to give myself a few days before I peeked. Peace out till tomorrow.
This morning I got in my truck and flipped the radio station over to 97.1FM Talk expecting to hear the voice of my favorite morning guy - the same guy I've been listening to for the last 5, maybe 6 years at this point. Instead, I hear a message that sounds like this : "Viacom has decided to end the Howard Stern show early to show sponsors that there is a new hope, a new 'King of All Media'......Infinity broadcasting has chosen David Lee Roth as Howard's replacement." Ummm, are you kidding? david lee roth is mental. He's a total goof! Why would I want to get up in the morning and listen to "diamond dave" spaz out? I thought that they were considering Chris Rock for that position. Now he would've been a hell of a lot better choice.

Anyway so this morning, I'm trying desperately to listen to spazoid and howard stern calls up to the show. Howard's like "dude, I've been there for 20 years and I don't even get to say goodbye?" David Lee Roth is like "oh yea ahh! well let's take another caller! yea!" Every single caller he had wanted to know why Howard left so suddenly - it was funny. Meanwhile, David's in the background screaming "oh yea! ahhhhh!" Oh it's so awful. Now I'm seriously thinking about getting Sirus Radio.

Friday, July 15, 2005

So today is Friday. I'm so glad. I haven't had a 'working on my house' weekend in a while and I'm kinda excited about it. I really wanted to finish priming my basement this week but as it turns out, it'll be done this weekend instead. I'm totally cleaning everything out of there too. It'll take me forever but if I want the shell done by August, I just have to buckle down and do it. What's gonna suck the most is the flooring though. Our slab is so uneven and in order to keep the flooring from deflecting, we may have to level the concrete.....which is gonna suck....royally. We wouldn't have this problem if we were installing carpet but the laminate wood looks so much better that we've decided the end result is worth the pain.

I have to go to the range today and at least two days next week. I'm going out on an actual course, two weeks from today, to play with other pm's from other companies so I have to look like I know what I'm doing. I have to lose weight too - so that even if I'm horrible at golf, I'll at least look good in the clothes. :-)

Speaking of losing weight, I started on the South Beach today. BACKSTORY: I've loved since I found out that I can buy my college books for cheap on half then sell them back to Western for the same price - and I like it cause I just like books in general. So most of my CDs and books and movies have been coming from cause I'm on that site nearly every night. Anyway, so a couple of days ago, I saw that the South Beach book was going for 8 bucks (including shipping) and I thought, "I'd like to lose a few pounds", so I bought it. I got it yesterday in the mail and to my ultimate surprise, the book is actually a good read. Crazy huh? So I'm gonna try it. I'm going to weigh myself today and see if I lose the average 8-13 pounds in the first two weeks. It'll be prolly be weird. If I get down to where I want to be, I will prolly have a small nervous breakdown.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

this is the stage closer - you'd think I'd be down front taking this photo but's the awesome zoom on my NEW camera! Yea! Posted by Picasa

This is the blissfest stage Posted by Picasa

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

You Are Edward From "Edward Scissorhands."

You are very shy and often misunderstood. Innocent, sweet, and artistic, you like to pass your days by daydreaming and expressing yourself through the arts. You are a truly unique individual. Unfortunately, you are quite lonely, and few people truly understand you.

Take The Johnny Depp Quiz!

Monday, July 11, 2005

I have pictures from Blissfest but I didn't have enough time to transfer them into my office this morning - so I'll have to wait to post them. Bummer.

Bliss was fun. I kinda wish I was still there, packing up for the weekend, and talking about starting the long trip home. I don't feel like dealing with reality today. I'd so much rather be curled up in a fuzzy blanket in my captain's chair, watching dirty people climb out of their tents and talk about how great last night was. I'd love to be anywhere in that general vicinity rather than here, working.

It was a long drive home though and I'm glad I don't have to drive all that way by myself again. It was hot, humid, and even worse in traffic. Although, I was jammin to some Bon Jovi with a pinch of Journey and a little tiny dash of Lynrd Skynrd (sp?) -- which total freakin sweet.

Alright well that's all I have to say about that. I mean, there's more but you'd have to go to Blissfest to find out the WHOLE story. I've promised to follow the "what happens at Bliss, stays at Bliss" credo -- so I'm not to divulge any juicy details. sorry dudes. ... not like anyone cares anyway.

ok I gotta go. later!

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

About a month or so ago, I googled "women roofers" and this is one of the pictures that popped up. I'm proud and I don't even know them. Posted by Picasa

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

I watched the fireworks over Boston last night after my dad sent me a text message that read, "Show time can you see me waving?" It was beautiful. I'm so jealous.

Monday, July 04, 2005

oh yes, fireworks. Pretty!

oh look someone else has some pretty ones too.

alright, i'm tired. I'm going to bed.

ok looks like people are starting to slow down on the bottle rockets.

Ok people, Slow down on the Bottle Rockets.

SerIously, I'M TrYing to SlEep - It'S latE, PleAsE stOp.



Friday, July 01, 2005

My parents left for Boston this morning. I really, really, really hope they enjoy it. I hope they bring back some cool pictures.