I need help.
This is something that is coming straight from the heart. In fact, I hesitate to do this so much, my fingers are typing just a few strokes slower. ..... but I need to do this because I don't have anywhere else to go.
We got Ruby a week ago today and a small part of me is .... as hard as this is to say.....regretful. First of all, I want to learn how to take care of a dog and I want to give a part of myself up to give her a good home. At three, she's developed essentially no bad habits; she sleeps during the day, she goes to bed at night, she knows "sit" and "no", and she's happy just sitting next to you on the floor and chewing her bone. She may be the most perfect dog ever. ..... but I keep getting these feelings.
I'm constantly worried about her when she's at home but I know she's fine. I'm constantly worried about giving her enough attention when I'm at home on the weekends. Sometimes I feel trapped in the house and unable to do the things that I want to do because she seems so dependent on me. I need her to be a little more independent like a cat but not too much that she's unhappy. Don't get me wrong, most of the time she's my little buddy but it's come down to about a good hour-hour and a half daily that I think about this.
I don't know how to fix this. I don't want to end up resenting her because she's unhappy. I need help.