Monday, April 30, 2007

I finally scheduled myself a vacation....which is good I guess. For the most part, I insist on punishing myself with more and more work after losing a bid or missing a bid or whatever -- so when I do schedule myself a vacation like this, I'm really thinking "oh you're quitting? you quitter!" in the back of my head.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

When she's outside in the sun, my little goofball always finds the shady spot to plop down and take a breather. Normally, she makes her nest under the table part of the grill but on Sunday she decided she wanted nothing to do with the deck. SOOO while she's hangin out with dad, workin on cars, she picks a small spot in the shade to chill out.

Meanwhile, I'm hosing down the bikes for the summer and give 'em a quick one two for the beginning of the season. All of the dirty water from each bike begins to trickle down the driveway and pools at the right corner of the apron in front of the garage. Paul, although working near the water flow, doesn't mind that the water is running by him because he's working off of an engine hoist that is slightly higher than the asphalt.

Ruby finally stops to take a break. Paul utters something like " Roobs!" I look up and here's what I see:


Monday, April 23, 2007

I often think about the times I've said something that didn't really mean. Like this one time, up north, when I was talking about my grandma and I made this ridiculous comment about .... well whatever ..... but it was so rude and I've tortured myself about it ever since. Or that other time, when I was with P and we were visiting Chi-Town. I was drinking car crashes all night and for whatever reason, a friend and I were fighting and we ended up beating the bejesus out of each other. The worst part was that it was all on tape - and that I started the whole stupid thing. Needless to say, I refuse to either drink hard liquor or fight anymore. Oh no wait, I did go with a wiskey and coke all night at my brothers wedding and let's just say getting caught lightin it up at the bar, drunk off my pa-toot, by a very overprotective aunt was only one of the very stupid things I did that night.

Hmm. Come to think of it, everything I just wrote involved some sort of hard liquor. Wow. That's not cool. That's really not cool at all. That is absolutely mortifying.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

nah, didn't get this one. I got another chance for a big one in two weeks though so I'm not too upset. ....But it still sucks to lose my plant - daaaaahhhhhh that sucks! Sucks sucks sucks

darn it.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

I'm shaking right now and I can't tell if it's from the coffee or the fact that I just dropped off a HUGE bid an hour ago. I'm scared. I really want the job because I know the facility and the people but I'm really nervous because it's a HUGE project. It would be cool if I got it though. Ah - I'm so nervous. Well we'll see what happens.......yes, yes, we will see.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

I watched a little bit of the CMT music awards last night and it made me want to get back into country.

Heard a guy talking about the shooting at V Tech on Opie and Anthony this morning. After the guy was finished telling his side of the story, O&A launched into a pro-legal gun rant and claimed that there is a difference between legal and illegal guns used during the commission of crimes. There was a point to A's tirade and it made sense but at this point, it's just separating the mud from the dirt (for lack of a better analogy). I'm not that knowledgable on gun laws or gun purchasing or gun background checks etc because I don't, nor do I want to own a gun. That being said, I won't comment on the process but I will throw out the obvious question -- so where do people get pistols to shoot other people?

It makes me wonder about anti-drug & lifer laws and 'three-strikes'. It makes me wonder about the 2+ million involved in the US correctional system and how nearly two-thirds of population is in for drug related crimes. I think about how people are so naive to believe that prison is the most effective deterrent for drugs. I think about how our prisons are exploding with people because of politicial "tough on crime" policies. Then, I think about how V Tech, like many other tragic situations, is going to be reduced to mere paradigm for some anti-gun, crime-stopper lobbyist that suggests we crowd more prisons with tougher gun control laws.

That's what always drove me crazy about this country's political landscape when it comes to criminal justice. It's like trying to teach dog who not to jump up on the bed by shutting the door to the bedroom. Grrr.........I'm so glad I'm not a cop right now. I think I would drive myself insane.

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Remember Baz Luhrmann 'Everybodys Free'? I heard it and it made me feel better about this week. It makes me really want to finish reading my book.

Makes me think that if, instead of holding the cards up, someone played songs then asked me what was the first thing I'd think of when I heard the tunes. Using winamp, I'm going to give it go:

1. Elvin Bishop - Fishin --- Miller Genuine Draft & potatoe chips.
2. Kayne West - The New workout Plan --- spandex.
3. Allison Krauss - Deeper than Crying --- Colorado Rockies
4. Bad Company - Rock N Roll Fantasy --- my garage & motor oil
5. Il Nino - What Comes Around --- driving to a jobsite for work
6. Rob Zombie - House of a 1000 Corpses --- Chillin in the basement
7. Sammy Davis Jr. - Candyman --- I hate Christina Aguilera
8. Lupe Fiasco - I Gotcha --- Paul
9. Irish Rovers - Drunken Sailor --- Shilelagh mmmmmm
10. Charlie Daniels - Big John --- awesome.

Thursday, April 12, 2007

I need side work. I need something on the side so that I can take my mind of my real work. Something that will generate some sort of extra income so that it'll be worth giving up my free time. I need something because I'm starting to lose it.
I just wanted to pop in this morning and say that I love Reba McIntyre. She is the best.


Wednesday, April 04, 2007

This always happens. I could swear it's the big guy making sure I stay as close to this life as possible. I feel like jerry on the one seinfeld episode about how a man's abstinence somehow makes george smarter, elaine dumber, and jerry dead even in life. if you've seen it, you'll know exactly what I'm talkin bout blog. I have one fantastic day last month and then I have one absolutely terrible, depressing, embarrassing day like yesterday, nearly 30 days later. It's unbelievable.

It makes me want to move somewhere new. Somewhere far away and totally unlike this place. Some far off place where I can hide for like 2 years then I'll come back. Ah......what dreams may come.

Monday, April 02, 2007

So we went out for Paul's birthday Friday night with my folks. First, Paul doesn't talk that much.....unless of course he's around Scott or Axel but that's a totally different story. Anyhoo so I try my absolute hardest not to talk about work but it's seriously challenging considering I spend 85% of my time at work with my parents. So as the night goes on and on, my folks and I keep turning the conversation into work-related gossip. By the end of dinner, I was so annoyed with myself it was sick.

I guess it all comes back to this book that I'm reading. It's called something like "92 tricks to talk to someone". One chapter in the book describes the dynamic of a 'little cat' vs. a 'big cat'. Big Cats are those whose confidence and poise is enough to convey success and intelligence whereas little cats are those who nip, poke fun, and tease -- compensating for size and lack of substance. ..... So the more the conversation steered towards work that night, the more I started to feel like a little kitty at a table full of big cats. I have a problem with verbally poking at my dad sometimes --- which I think, is more in response to how much he jabs me at work when he's my "boss".

It occured to me later that night that if I stop poking at the bear, maybe the bear will stop nipping at me. Uhh Duh Jackie - you're an idiot! You need to grow up.