Wednesday, July 08, 2009


Oh man have I made some training progress! The other day, I finished 48 minutes at just under 5.0 non-stop. Sweet Corn!......that is a HUGE achievement for me. Last night, I don't know where I pulled out the energy to get 3.7 miles done but it's done. What the hell is going on?! I hate running. Yes, I seriously hate running but I'm trying to learn to like it. Ha! I know that sounds stupid but my desire to accomplish something as big as a half-marathon is greater than my hatred for I deal.

Now on to the weight loss. I'm down 27lbs. from when I started in January. The half pound a week stopped when I left for our 'out of town' project for 4 weeks. I had to stop running because of the constant travel every two to three days. It just got to be way too hard to keep up that exercise schedule when you drive 700 miles a week. So over that period of time, I neither gained nor lost any weight. Which is good I guess.

When I started on this training schedule back on the 15th of June, I had a really rough start. I only did about 8 miles for that week and then about 8 miles for the following week. Last week is when I really kicked her up a notch by going 16 miles total. Of course, this week - I'm not even gonna get close because of Bliss. .... sucky.... BUT it's ok, I still have 15 more weeks of pain.

Surprisingly enough, I have not lost any additional weight yet, even though I'm on a more aggressive running schedule than before. My appetite has gone berserk though. I want food. My stomach can handle about half of the food I want. I'm not talking like crappy food like BK or Mickey Ds but really good food like chicken with Kale or steak & summer squash or chicken zucchini stir fry. It's crazy! If I have nothing but restaurant food to choose from - like if I'm driving somewhere - I'm so picky to the point where I will nearly throw up my hands and go without if I have to. .... BUT if there's good fresh food ready to be picked right off the grill or out of the oven, gimme gimme gimme. I'm like the cookie monster!


Sunday, June 21, 2009

I had a good week last week until Friday afternoon about 4:30 when a lady told me that we might not be able to use the material we delivered to the site not 8 hours earlier. I don't want to get into it because it's Sunday and it took me two whole days to accept that it's not personal, it's business. I admit, sometimes, I have a really hard time dealing with that but I finally found a way to, at least, get most of it out of my system.

Today, in efforts to follow my training guide, I did 3.2 miles. Ok, so it's about 2 miles short of the overall goal for the day but I can't forget that this is going to take some time --- as in, I can't expect a 5 mile day in the first week of training. I've never done that, not even back in high school sports, so I'm trying to hold the bar fairly low.

I did, however, pass a milestone today. One that I've never been able to do before.
I started out with a 5 min warm up, as usual, at 3.7 mph.
Then I jogged for 33 minutes at 4.2-4.3 mph
Walked at 3.5 for 4 minutes
Jogged again at 4.6 then up to 5 for 6-7 minutes
Cool down for about a minute or so at 2.9 mph
Total time was about 49 minutes.

Umm, 33 minute jog? Excuse me? I realize that time wise with regard to the overall distance isn't all that awesome but 33 minutes? I can't believe that I actually lasted that long. It'll be insane if I ever reach an hour without a break in between.

Today might be a good day. It just might.

Friday, June 19, 2009

UGH I've been through two days of training already and I'm feeling in it. Wednesday night was my 3 mile and last night was my 2 mile with strength training. Surprisingly enough, it was not hard to jump on the treadmill last night knowing that I'd run 3 miles the night before. The crappy part was holding my pace though. I ran out of gas way quicker than I expected. I guess I was mentally ready to go but my body didn't really want to move. I knew I should've had a wheaty samich for lunch instead of a big salad. I COULDN'T RESIST - small greek, feta and olives only, is my FAVORITE work lunch special.

I have a little dilemma when it comes to work lunches and calories. I need more good calories like hearty carbs, protein, and fiber but the only place to get that around here is Subway.....and even that's a little 'eh'. I would really LOVE it if I made lunches at home, with real deli delicious meat and cucumbers and tomatoes and mustard and soft, fluffy bread mmmmmmmmmmm ..... but then I feel like I'm trapped in this basement office for 9 long hours. At least if I get food from a place around here, I get to leave, even if it's for only 15 minutes.

I should find a bench and put it behind the sheet metal shop. You know what? I think I'm gonna do that. At least back there, I'll feel like I'm actually 'out to lunch'. Hmmm. Nice. Thanks blog. :-)

Monday, June 08, 2009

Well, it's been a month since I've last written. I guess I haven't been as vocal about the everyday diet because I was traveling back and forth between here and GR. And as we all know, traveling can be a BIG killer for a diet. I'm back now though, so I suppose I can talk about the results.

I'm proud to say that I've actually stayed pretty close to my target caloric intake. I'll admit, I had a few mishaps (totally on purpose) and blew it by having a few cocktails or 'lighter' beers a few nights out of the many that I was there but overall, I think I did terms of calories. At least, I haven't gained any weight back. :)

I did not, however, run a single minute in three weeks. That's not all that great considering how difficult it is to break back into the routine when you've been out for that long BUT I have to try. You see blog, I'm on a mission now. I'm going to run a half marathon with a friend of mine in October so I don't have the option to stop anymore. I do NOT think that it'll be easy and I'll probably end up walking for a mile or two but I'd like to go for it anyway. It's a chance to really put in the time for a big pay off; both in accomplishing a goal that I'd never thought I'd even attempt and maybe wear a two piece this summer which is something that I haven't been able to do since I was 14. I'm looking forward to reaalllllly getting into it. I hope it goes well! Ha!

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Total pounds lost on the P&J Exchange Program = 23lbs.

Workout Improvements:
I'm on a full on 20-25 minute jog on the treadmill with a good five minute power walk (warm up) at 3.8mph and a 5 minute cool down at 3.0 - 2.7. However, I started a new routine just last week that increases the overall workout time and is actually helping me push for a longer run times. When I first started, I gave myself a goal for the length of time I should stay at the jogging pace. It went from 10 to 15, and then 15 to 20 minutes (this was over a couple of months of course). If I couldn't push myself to get to the minimum, I would sprint at least 3 times at 8.5 for 30 seconds before the end of the workout. Now - my new thing - I add those sprints in there whether I complete or not complete the minimum jog time. Surprisingly enough, I've seen my jog times increase without even trying.

We also add some hand weights to the mix. I'm not really all that great when it comes to the exercises you should or should not do with free weights so I'll have to be that guy/girl who needs to print out directions on how to use free weights :-) Oh well!

I haven't changed this much. Although I have flipped from Diet Cokes at home to Pomegranate juice and skim milk so I guess I have changed just a tad. I keep reading that some 'fake' sugars (aspartame?) are supposedly extremely bad for you and the caffeine is keeping me up at night. So after months of denial - I finally switched. I'm not really a milk drinker but it seems to be both adding to my fullness during meals and I sleep just a wee bit better. Nice huh?

Well, I'm down to about a half pound a week. I'd love to be losing more but I feel so good right now, I wouldn't change anything at all. I can handle the exercise and I LOVE, LoVe, lOVe food so I'm gonna stick with it. According to my height, I'm only about 15lbs away from my normal recommended weight. Isn't that insane?! I feel weird saying that. 15lbs. Like I was 38lbs overweight just 5 months ago. That's strange.

Well, I hope I get there eventually. It would be super nice to actually feel good in a bathing suit. It's only been like .....oh man ..... this is gonna sound bad but ....... wow, like 9 years, maybe? Holy schnikes it's been a while.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

I had an embarrassing moment over easter. I bought a few shirts at this store last week, thinking that they'd go really really well with a pair of white slacks that I had at home. On Easter morning, after jumping out of the shower, I go to put on my outfit and oooohhh pants don't fit anymore. My husband cheers a little while I show him the gap between my waist and the outside of the pant line but quickly stops when he sees the disappointment in my face. He curiously asks "What is wrong with you?!"

My response, "CRAP. The whole reason I bought this shirt was for these pants. CRAP. Now I have to go buy new pants." He looks at me like I'm crazy.

Seriously, I did not account for buying new clothes. I almost considered throwing half my clothes into the dryer for 11 hours just so I don't have to throw or give them away. I hate having a lot of clothes --- I know that sounds weird --- but I can't stand looking at something I know I hardly ever wear but can't seem to give away.

Wednesday, April 08, 2009

So it's really funny when people are like "um whoa, ummmm {{pssssst}} so jackie, umm, so did you like, umm, lose weight, errrr?" It's like some people are really cautious about what they say when it comes to weight, even when you lose it. I suppose it's only the right thing to do considering how mortifying it would be if someone asked if someone else gained a lot of weight. SO I guess maybe it's a good thing people are nervous about the weight subject either way. So blog, I've decided to save you from the weird, awkward question, and just tell you what's happening flat out. I've lost a lot of weight.

When I got married back in '04, I was actually at my heaviest. Over the years, I've attempted to work out and eat healthier (and so on) and I did lose a few pounds here and there. I would say I lost about 10-12lbs over about 3-4 years while cutting a little bit of fatty or starchy foods and VERY little booze out of my diet. After a year long battle to rid myself of the a really nasty habit, I finally generated enough motivation to convince myself to live better. So on Jan 1st, 2009, I made a promise to commit to getting healthy for me and my family.

Since Jan 1st, I've lost 20lbs. Since my wedding in 2004, I've lost 32lbs. I LOVE the food I eat now - like sweet potatoe risotto or turkey burgers or beef pitas or rosmary mushroom soup - I love it so much that I would never, ever, ever go back to the standard staple like fetticine alfredo or chicken with green been casserole with one of two stout beers..........well at least not every day. :) and I LOVE that feeling after I run by behind off on the treadmill. You know, that "come on! 30 seconds! GO GO GO! YOU GOT IT!" feeling.

Quite honestly blog, I had no idea what I was missing. I really wish they had a nutrition class in college or high school. It took me so long --- so frickin long --- to do this. It took me 3 years to put on 45lbs and 5 years to lose 32. How sucky is that?!

AH well, you know what the key is? Committment and honesty. Being honest about what you are, where you really want to be, and committing to getting there safely. That is the key. Hey, I'm never gonna be a size 2 and that's cool. I'd just like my clothes to fit properly and I'd like to get rid of a sore back and maybe some heart burn while I'm at it.

Catch ya on the flip side-

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Did I tell you that I'm down 18lbs so far now? Yeah, it's pretty awesome. I wish I could shed a little more but it's been a crazy over the last two weeks.

St. Patty's weekend was a blast! I stayed as close to the diet as I could but it's a little hard when you have an all day drinking extravaganza planned. I was proud of myself for not giving in too much, even though it was nice to splurge a little.

Training was crazy last week too. Two wonderful days of non-stop, cram-it-into-the-brain information, all the way up in Saginaw, from 8am-5pm. Despite the length of program, it was, in fact, a really super good experience. I HATE it when people order lunches for everybody though. It's always pizza or greasy take out. I used to love pizza but it kills now because I can only eat one piece in order to stick within my alotted calories (not to mention saturated fats). And then take out, now that is almost worse because you get this small wrap samich, surrounded by potato chips. You obviously eat the samich but it's just not enough, you need a little more.......then the chips scream out "eat me!" - but it doesn't make you full because they're just made out of corn oil, potatoes, and salt, none of which give you any energy or nutritional value at ALL you're just flaboozled into eating crap. Then it's hard to concentrate for the rest of the afternoon.

I gotta get myself back on track!

Thursday, March 05, 2009

I made it! **this is where balloons come down from the ceiling and party horns sound, etc etc** I pledged to lose 15lbs. on the Pound for Pound challenge and I did it! I can't believe it!

Right after Christmas, Paul and I talked about changing our lifestyle for the better and that we should participate in something like the PfPc. I can't believe that it worked it actually worked. That's insane! After all of those times when we said we wanted to lose weight and then failed miserably after 6 beers and three slices of meat lovers pizza with extra cheese. I just can't believe it.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

wednesday check in. Well, I'm still holding at 13lbs. There's a reason for it holding for about a week or so -- and it's not because of overeating or no exercise. It'll start back up again next week, it's cool. I'm confident.

I'm still training on the treadmill. I'm running for just under 20 minutes now (about 4 songs as I like to say) and I'm so proud. I think I'm going to set a goal for 22 minutes (minimum & consistent) by the end of march. I think I can do it. Paul's really getting into this too. He's got a bad back so he walks as fast as he can 2-3 nights a week. He's beginning to like it which kills me sometimes cause since he's created this routine - he's like "oops there goes 20 lbs!" URG. Eh, it's cool. I'm happy he's happy. ***jealous*** Anyway, I wasn't really into the idea of spending all this money on hand weights and benches and whatnot but he's starting to turn me around on that. He convinced me to start with buying hand weights for walking which we can both share. I don't know exactly how I feel about it, I mean I like the idea but it reminds me of a time back when I had the Bally's membership......

We didn't have Ruby so I'd go and work out for two hours after work 2-3 days a week at the Bally's around the corner. I wanted to focus on cardio but more so on lifting because I was spending more time in the field and I needed the upper body strength. Yeah.... so I started with pressing 45lbs for 2-3 sets of 10 -- and in 4 months, I'd gotten up to over 100lbs. I saw results alright. I put on a dress, stood in front of the mirror, and turned around. My shoulders and upper arms were huge. I mean, not that much definition but when the sleeves on your polo starts to get a little tighter and you blame it on the dryer -- you're in denial. Needless to say I switched dresses and put on a cardigan. I wasn't ashamed or anything, it was just a little more manly than I was prepared for. Who the hell expects that to happen in only four months??

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Check in Wednesday. Weight loss so far : 13lbs. I was thinking about skipping the check in this morning because I've almost plateau'ed over the last few days BUT it's actually better that I talk about it. From last Thurs to last night, I've picked up an additional 5-10 minutes on my run and then used the 9mph-30 second sprints for extra stress release. Sprints were especially satisfying last night after a long, frustrating day. I didn't eat enough yesterday though - I fell 200 calories short of my daily goal. That's not good. As busy as I was, I should've maybe stopped to somewhere for an apple or banana or something else worth filling up on.

It's sucky to see that number stay the same after a couple good days of good food and exercise but it's alright. I'll take it. It's a minor bump in the road. I just have to remember to keep my calories up and keep making progress on the workout. .... btw, I can't believe that I actually ran for a solid 20 minutes the other day. I cannot believe it. It's been SO long since I've been able to do that and enjoy it. I'm actually more excited to say that then anything else this week.

I talked to this guy the other day, about his wife and the diets she's tried over the years. He mentioned something that I thought rings true with a lot of women who diet. He said that his wife would love to get down to the weight she was in high school - so much so that it's her ultimate goal. You know, for a long time, that was my goal too......but I can't say that it's a realistic goal anymore.

When I graduated, and I say this with some very uncomfortable humility but yet little regret, I was at least 30 lbs lighter. Would I like to lose it? HELL YEAH! BUT the one thing I have to remember is that back then, I played sports 11 months out the year and I was 18. So I have to ask myself, am I willing to go back to sports and non-stop work outs and leave little time for anything else? ....... well, no, not really. So what do I do? I have to be happy with who I am.

The point is blog, if you're happy with who you are, the number on a scale is just a stupid number on a scale. Exercising and eating well just gives you more time to be happy. I hope that I can drop a few more pounds but I gotta tell you, I feel great right now. I feel stronger. I feel like I breathe, walk, and concentrate better. I like this. I feel like I should've done this a long time ago.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Check in day. Weight loss so far: 11lbs. I don't really even want to say that this is a diet cause it doesn't feel like one. I mean believe me blog, when people say it's a lifestyle change, it most certainly is BUT it's.......dare I say it........not very hard. Mix a little willpower in with a little motivation and discipline and BAM! Heathly lifestyle.

There's no special tricks. There's no starving myself. There's no super 9 hour workouts. I just eat better and jog 3 times a week for 30 minutes. I will not allow myself to go nuts and think that I need to turn into this new person who runs 17 miles a day and eats only salads and no carbs or red meat.....uh uh nope, not for me. I try to be honest. I know me - I've had five years of daily routines that I'd have very little success changing if I try to do it all at once. So I'm doing it a little at a time.

Here's a typical day with the jog:
7am : coffee and a banana (120 calories)
11:30am : 6" Subway samich on wheat or honey oat with apples and a diet vernors or water (350 calories)
2pm-5pm: water, water, water....
5pm : an apple and maybe some grapes (95 calories) Sometimes I'll go with carrots or celery with 2 tbsp of peanut butter or light ranch on the side
7pm : Wicked white hot chili, 2 cups or so, and crackers with a diet green tea (about 600 calories or so)
Other days, I eat things like honey mustard pork chops (4-6oz) with italian mixed vegetables or a turkey burger with a small house salad and light dressing.

Total = about 1200 - sometimes a hundred less, sometimes a hundred more, depends on whether I have time to eat my oatmeal in the morning. :)

When I work out, I do 30 minutes 3 times a week on the treadmill in addition to walking the dog for a good half mile to a mile every day. I tell myself that I need to jog at at least 5 mph for a minimum of 10 minutes of the 30 on the tm. If I do more, awesome - if I'm exhausted, I'll do my 10 and speed walk the rest. I'm not picky. I know eventually I'll increase the jog time and the total time overall but for now, I'm gonna do what I feel like doing.

I guess whether I keep losing weight or not, I don't really care. I know I'm not as anxious or stressed as I was before so that's really become my main goal. If the weight falls off or plateaus, so be it. I just don't want to have another nervous breakdown before my forties. :)

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

I had to practically force myself on the treadmill last night but I'm actually really glad that I did. I am really proud of myself these past few weeks. My head has really been into the weight loss game more than ever before and it's been at least 3 -4 weeks now. I'm totally diggin the renewed ability to jog for 15 solid minutes and NOT watch the clock for every second. The 30 minutes, although still a little painful at times, is beginning to turn into a habit....which is great.

Weight loss thus far: 9lbs. Wanna know a secret? Booze. We cut back our beer intake right after Christmas and not only saved some copper but eliminated a lot of wasted calories. I didn't know how I'd feel about it at first, but now I'm acutally kinda glad we did. I get up faster in the mornings now.......not to say that I want to get up faster, it's just that I can.

Plus, I always remember my dad with a beer or two in his hand after work when I was growing up. I'm not going to judge whether that was the right or wrong thing to do or somehow blame the fact that Paul and I drank a lot because our parents did, but our families were never a symbol of HEALTHY. So I think we're going start over and practice becoming healthier and more green-friendly people before raising children. I hope it works ;)

Friday, January 23, 2009

Did you know that you can eat a bowl of vegetables, a medium salad with cherry tomatoes & two tablespoons of light ranch dressing, and a small boneless piece of chicken breast with cheese and salsa, for the same calories as one and half pieces of pizza? Did you also know that you can eat a gynormous plate full of celery and two tablespoons of light ranch (for dipping purposes) for less calories than 16 potato chips? 4 weeks and almost 5lbs ago, I did not know that.

So I took this pledge with the website Pound For Pound Challenge because I wanted some additional motivation for losing the weight and getting healthier this year. You have to set a goal/target weight, work your ass off to get to it or beyond, and then log-in in April to report the number of pounds lost. Whatever number you report, their sponsors will donate $.10 for every pound lost to food banks. It's free and there's no major involvement or commitment -- so the work is all up to you. I don't know, it seemed cool. It's gonna hurt like hell to keep dropping the weight but whatever, I want do it. Nothing worth having is ever easy.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009


Monday, January 19, 2009

Paul made bean burgers last night. They turned out to be more like bean mush with lettuce and tomatoes between two pieces of whole wheat bun....but we both ate them and then laughed about why making burgers out of beans was among the worst recipe ideas ever to come from Betty Crocker. Damn it Crocker! YOu let us down!

Tonight we'll probably try the chicken cacciatore. You say 'cacciatore' like "ca-chi-tory" - did you know that? IN NO WAY IS IT SPELLED LIKE THE WAY YOU SAY IT......or as I learned after Paul made fun of my mispronunciation of the stupid dumb idiotic word. :)

speaking of food, you know what I learned this week that's taken me years and years and years to figure out? Oatmeal is good! I have to say that I LOVE oatmeal. I feel like popeye after polishing off a small bowl of oatmeal (I mean, instead of spinach, which is also good, but not out of a can). How great is that? Ahhh gukgukgukgukgukguk! Toot Toot!

I love popeye.